I Hate To Love You

I hate to love you....
Because of the way you make me feel.
Giving me small bits of happiness while at the same just piss me off.

I hate to love you....
You showing me that there might be something real between us for one small moment.
But then the ugly face of reality shows itself reminding me that you are really full of shit.

I hate to love you....
I love the way you look into my eyes. Your kiss so full of passion giving me some hope you care for me.
But  I really know you don't really care for me.... You just like the taste.

I hate to love you....
My stomach filling up with butterflies with every chance I get to hear your voice.
But then your mood comes in like an overnight freeze, killing all existence of any butterflies that was there.

Saying to myself how I am such a damn fool while crying in the shower attempting to remove any memory of your touch and the regrets I have.
But when you walk though the door, my heart skips a beat yearning for one ounce of your love. Even if it is only temporary.

I hate to love you....

By: Ashley M Ashley 2015
MD Productions

Painful heart: The prey and predator

What's the use of having a heart,
If it is broken over and over again.
All of my life it  has slowly been torn apart,
But I am the one letting it happen.
Shredded into tiny bits,
Picking up the pieces each day.
Even though I try to act like the predator,
I am really the prey.
Was as strong as the Lion,
But your touch has made me weak.
But you will never know.
That's why I must leave.
I was once strong,
Built a wall to keep my hopes contained,
Let it open for a chance,
But sadly was weakened and crushed,
By a hunters blade.
I should've never took a chance,
And let hope for love in.
Lingering for last chance of remorse,
My heart is stabbed once again

Ashley M Ashley MD productions 2015

Except For Me

Except For Me:

There is no greater pain then the pain of a broken heart.
What I thought "WE" had....Eventually fell apart.
I had hopes...
But like the birds heading south for the winter.... My hopes flew away.
I had dreams...
But just as the clouds do on a windy night, they moved on with no intentions to stay.
I had excitement...
But tragically was destroyed by disappointment and despair.
Even thought we had spark like lightning...
But was really like thunder on a hot summer night... Nothing but flashes and hot air.
I thought I had it all and could be happy once again....
But because what we had was really nothing.. I was really mistaken.
I am doomed to be forever alone,
Because Love has forsaken me.
Everyone is destined for Love,
Everyone except for me....

Ashley Ashley 2015 MD Productions