I Hate To Love You

I hate to love you....
Because of the way you make me feel.
Giving me small bits of happiness while at the same just piss me off.

I hate to love you....
You showing me that there might be something real between us for one small moment.
But then the ugly face of reality shows itself reminding me that you are really full of shit.

I hate to love you....
I love the way you look into my eyes. Your kiss so full of passion giving me some hope you care for me.
But  I really know you don't really care for me.... You just like the taste.

I hate to love you....
My stomach filling up with butterflies with every chance I get to hear your voice.
But then your mood comes in like an overnight freeze, killing all existence of any butterflies that was there.

Saying to myself how I am such a damn fool while crying in the shower attempting to remove any memory of your touch and the regrets I have.
But when you walk though the door, my heart skips a beat yearning for one ounce of your love. Even if it is only temporary.

I hate to love you....

By: Ashley M Ashley 2015
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